"Most of the time the faces we face are not the other guys', but our own faces. and it's the worst kind of yellowness to be so scared of yourself you put blindfolds on rather than deal with yourself. -- to face ourselves. -- that's the hard thing. -- the imagination. -- that's God's gift to make the act of self-examination bearable."

this quote is probably one of the best things i've heard. especially living in Los Scandalous, everyone wears a mask at some point. it's what we think people want, us with the masks on, because why would people care about the real us, the emotional, scared, make-up-less, naked, no swag version of ourselves. and that's what makes this so deep. we are so worried about others and what they think, we become blind to even our true selves, because we are scared no one will accept or appreciate the real us. a friend of mine and i had a conversation about this, and he mentioned that the truth is so unattractive to most people on the outside, and i told him it doesn't even matter. theres no need to impress everyone, because in the end someONE will accept the truth and love and appreciate you for it, and that's all you really need. you go home either alone or to one, not to 1000 people. so in the end why worry about them? some people do it in their search for happiness, but sometimes i feel people look too hard for that point of happiness that they miss it when it is right in front of their faces. never being satisfied is a curse and a blessing. in growing, i've become an expert at pretending, the master of disguise. and no its not fake, just learned to never give myself fully. look at me and tell me wat you see, and i'll tell you what i am, and then you decide if you should believe it or not. think about it.