don't sell yourself to...

* I'm a selfish person..
* I know, but life doesn't always work in your favor.
* But I do Love you. I'm in love with you.
* I think our love for one another is different..
* If I dated someone else a year from now, would you still want me?
* No. How could I be with you after I've seen you give another the same thing we had? It takes away from what we had, and it's no longer special.
* I know you're what I need, but my wants are in the way right now. But i do know that I'm going to Marry you.
* I can't, and I won't wait forever.

internet[k]

the internet can lead people to so many thoughts... its crazy. people assume stuff from pictures, or take little actions to heart. away messages are posted to make people think, and some give too much info, while some never give enough. people don't even talk on the phone anymore, they just text or AIM instead. i am even a victim to this, because lord knows i hate being on the phone. it's so much easier to AIM and what not. i don't know, but the internet, with all its blogs, websites, pictures, and aways, is just so misleading, yet they sometimes bring out the truth in so many situations. its like you hate to love it. just never assume what you see is what it looks like, even in real life. everyone wears a mask, everyone lies, and everyone plays a role in the streets... i mean, this is Hollywood right?

48hours

okay, so i haven't slept since Friday night. i hung out with some friends, had a lil dranky drank, went to the U-N-I show, hung out with friends till like 2am. then once we got home, we had company till almost freakin 6am. Ashlie tried giving me the worst advice ever (but we all know i know better than to listen lol) & we slept over Aricka's. The 3 of us woke up at 7am to go to the AA flea Market that opened at 12pm. we were in line from 8:30am and didn't leave the damn place till 2pm. there was like 20 of us lol. it was so hot and crowded that by the time we got to shop, we were all irritated and ready to go. but we came up on some clothes! after that, went back to Aricka's and took a nice cool shower which was absolutely amazing. we tried to nap, but that didn't work, hung out with friends some more, and now i'm home. i am absolutely tired and was going to drive to my god familys because that's where i'll be staying for the week, but i'll wait till the morning lol.

anticipation

sooo, tomorrow is going to be a wonderful Sunday. Ashlie, Aricka and I are going to have a sleep over tonight so that at the break of dawn we can head down to the AA flea market. i am so excited for no reason lol! cheap clothes duhhh! clothes clothes clothes! and then after all that excitement, more good times lay ahead for the day... muahahaha! and then Aug 15th, mini road trip with the ladies.. poolside tanning, dranks, camera, videos, girl talk, all of it, i simply cannot wait!